Jaye Trade Blogs

My Personal View and Experience.

Hello, I feel it’s been a second since taking the time to write like this. Truth is I’ve found myself quite busy with a lot of different situations in my life. Road trip driving, personal scheduling, planning. This kind of stuff can really take a lot of time out of the day to get stuff done, especially on top of the work I dedicate myself to. I’ve been struggling to feel I have the time to actually write something down, on top of just struggling on what I want to write about. I love writing, and sometimes I just want to write just to write, but the truth is, I go through moments in time where I can’t “Just write.” without structure, kind of how I tend to do on here. Journaling is easier in this sense for me, because all I’m doing is writing down specific information to essentially make note of it, whether its my emotional state, or a break through in my trading, even just relevant context for them.

That struggle to find myself able to write is actually an example of a cycle I tend to go through. Sometimes I have phases where I can write nonstop for hours just rambling on the thoughts in my head and creating competent (at least semi-competent) literature. Others, blank state of mind. It’s not as though I don’t want to write, its almost as though I feel incapable of doing it in a meaningful manner, even though I still have a plethora of subjects I want to write on.

This isn’t the only context I’ve taken note of this in. I look back to situations in my life and realize all the different times where I go through phases almost, whether its micro context such as shifts in my daily routines, or broader such as the changes I see within me repeat with the seasons, life tends to come back around to some degree.

I don’t believe this to always be the same. I have an extremely dynamic view on most things in life as I tend to take plenty of separate information and build on it, and this goes for the cycles of my life as well. I view it as these cycles are more similar than exact, with big change mostly coming from purposeful action to either break a cycle, refine it, or no change, and leaving it alone entirely. Recently I’ve had a break through (and feel as though I’m frequently coming across them) in my work, and was hit with the realization of this.

I went through a full cycle of growth within me, psychologically, emotionally, and in terms of how I approach the market, methodically. Looking back on it, I see how I’ve come full circle, not once even, but at this point twice. It’s the result of my constant effort to build and harbor change for the better within my life, but honestly, catching this has caused some reflection. I can see the cycle I must go through in my ventures to achieve success. I can see the way I’ve had to tear myself down to the core, and rebuild time and time again, only to end up somewhere similar to before, but this time better, refined, and with clearer understanding.

I truly find it surprising how much context can shift, or add perspective to anything in life. This naturally goes for my work as well, and seeing the result of this effort does tend to feel more surreal than it should. Of course progress in any venture of life requires constant effort, but when we look back on past situations, I at least tend to find myself constantly in awe of the results said effort yielded. In the present it can be so hard to see progress in anything, and personally I tend to hold myself to an unfair standard in current perspective, however I find that when looking back, I can be much more understanding sometimes toward what happened, and what caused the shifts. It’s honestly because present me can be grateful to past me for the hardships endured, because thanks to that struggle, I am able to find myself where I am today in terms of current results, even if the everlasting work of constant betterment proves unending.

Conclusion

It feels good to find myself writing again, though I never feel I have the time. I don’t know how consistently I’ll be posting as I’ve been caught up with more than I was before, but any chance I get I definitely look forward to being able to express my thoughts on here. This is probably just another phase in my cycle so to speak, and most likely I’ll find myself with more time again at some point in the future. Until then, I look forward to these moments where I find myself able to spend time writing.

I hope you enjoyed the read, take care. – JayesusR