Jaye Trade Blogs

Difficulties in Finding Time.

The amount of time we have in our lives is by default limited. Every action, sequence, and consequence is the build up of everything we’ve gone through, leading to what we will go through. Time itself is challenging to deal with. It’s the very thing that makes the human experience unique, beautiful, and worth it, but finding a way to use it efficiently doesn’t always work out.

Attempting to find this perfect balance in my priorities has proved rather difficult, as my actions are almost opposite of each other. I want to have time for my family, so I work toward my future, but to work toward my future I require time dedicated to my craft, taking away time for my family. It’s a sacrifice I’m all too willing to make as I try to have a bigger picture view on my life, but the reality to it isn’t so simple. I love my family, but I also love the work I dedicate myself too. There isn’t anything inherently wrong with this, I feel it’s great that I have something I can focus on that I love, but the truth is, I’m still doing it in order to eventually free up my schedule. Because of these opposing views I have, as well as understanding both sides, I’m caught up in constant conflict within myself. I feel guilty if I spend time toward my craft, as its time away from the people I love, but if I spend time with them, I feel as though I’m behaving lazily toward my goals, and not putting forth the effort required to achieve my dreams.

Living in The Moment.

The solution to this sounds simple on paper – Dedicate separate time for both, without allowing the inner thoughts of my brain to lean me away from being in the moment, this way I get to an extent the best of both worlds. Quieting the mind however isn’t an easy task, and even when I’m caught up spending time with those I love, my mind seems to love wandering and attempting to push me toward perfecting my craft.

The truth is regardless of the circumstance I find myself in, it doesn’t take away from the present moment. Whether I’m with my family, or attempting to further myself, all I can do is live in every moment, and look forward to the next. Scenarios may vary, but life continues regardless. I guess what I’m trying to say is, dedicating my best self to any action I’m doing is the most I’m capable of. Overthinking doesn’t do anything, and attempting to force myself into a system doesn’t work for me either. I’ve always been very dynamic in my view and approach toward life, so flowing with the waves within it is what I can attempt to do best. I’ll never get it perfect, but I can promise this way that regardless of the situation, finding myself riding the waves of my life is always a possibility. I may fail and crash, but life’s all about getting back up and continuing to try.

Conclusion

Life isn’t perfect, and we’re all caught up within our own worlds, riding our own waves. Time goes on regardless, but if I die tomorrow, I can at least say in my final moments I pushed myself forward until the very end, and I dedicated my best self to everything, and everyone, regardless of the outcome. Our time here is limited, but our resolve toward our lives is what makes it special.

Continuing to look forward, hope you do too. – JayesusR