Jaye Trade Blogs

Awareness To The Process.

When there’s any goal worth working toward, there’s always going to be a path taking you through the journey you experience. As people we tend to believe many things in life to be linear, including this metaphorical path we take toward our goals and through life, but often times fail to realize the true direction these paths take us through.

Once a goal is achieved, or even in the process toward progress, when looking back at the challenges we’ve triumphed, many including myself look back at them as the next step we took forward, a stepping stone in the journey. What tends to be overlooked however is the difficulty and work it took to overcoming that stepping stone. There tend to be more set backs than we realize, as no problems ever easy, if it was, then it can’t classify as a real problem, maybe a temporary setback. What I’m referring to is the challenges within those challenges that caused the real progress to occur. The process of progress rarely comes naturally, and so many give up at the first sign of struggle, unaware that’s whats causing them to stay in place. You need to learn the process of growing before you’re able to reap the byproduct caused by it.

Struggling With Progress.

Learning to love the process is vital in my opinion, both for any goal, and for life. The saying “It’s about the Journey, not the Destination” has always resonated well with me, but working toward my own growth caused me to view it in a new light. I never understood the meaning those words held, not at their core. Sure you can talk about a physical journey, or a metaphorical one such as having a goal, and use it as a way to focus on the now, not the end, but to me, it’s meaning is a little deeper. I see it as the journey within myself. Not just my life, not just my story, not only the path I walk down, no. Who I am, who I want to be, who I will be. That’s the journey that truly drives me forward, and guarantees to me that no matter what it is I want in life, I’ll achieve it. The journey one can take within themselves far surpasses the importance of any goal, because without growth in the self, there can’t be growth outside the self. You’re the driving factor behind what you can achieve, and if you’re not ready for progress in yourself, ready for change within, then you can’t expect change anywhere else. It starts with you.

This is a very personal and difficult journey, and sometimes the change that must occur can be far greater then originally perceived. This was the case for the journey I’m currently going down, and its been a long, very difficult process. I’ve had to face myself, break myself down to the core, and rebuild from the foundation up, everything I needed to do, understand, and change. In the beginning it felt impossible to achieve, like the means had no end, but slowly I saw progress, I perceived change, witnessed growth. It took a while, but I’ve come to the point where I can start to see it, the change within me, the progress I’ve worked toward, and the surface of the next stepping stone down my journey. When I look back, my capabilities far surpass what I once imagined possible, and it’s hard to envision the reality before me. Though this progress is starting to lead me toward my next stepping stone, it’s difficult to accept the growth that’s occurring within. Not that I reject it, far from it, more so that I know who I once was. I’m familiar with the version of me who hasn’t grown, who did get stuck, who knocked himself down. How can I accept this version of me I’m becoming and worked so hard toward if I don’t even know him? How can I open myself up to the possibility that my work is paying off and I’m possible of everything I’ve dreamed of and more? That the version of me I had to tear down actually had potential. It’s harder to accept, to acknowledge than I realized it would be. I’ve still got miles ahead of me before I can say I represent everything I want to be in life, but progress in that direction is the only thing that’ll get me there, so I must learn to welcome results with open arms, and do my best to avoid self sabotage.

Conclusion.

Writing like this really helps me gain insight toward my thoughts, as sometimes I tunnel vision and manage to avoid understanding what I’m really thinking. I believe my thoughts have reason, and whether I understand them or not, coming to learn the message behind what I’m thinking about is necessary to address what specifically I’m going through, and come up with a resolution of sorts. Whether it’s learning who I am, or getting something off my chest, this process really helps me, and I’m glad I get to send these types of thoughts and messages out there to share with the world.

Looking forward to writing again. Till next time. – JayesusR