Jaye Trade Blogs

The View I’ve Developed.

Life tends to be full of so many changes, situations, and outcomes, that over time, it can become increasingly difficult to keep track of it all. I think back to moments in my life where my view points were so vastly different than the ones I’ve taken to today, that it can be pretty shocking to have the comparisons. Life is full of wonder, surprises, and experiences that ultimately shape who we are and choose to become, but its always an everlasting process. There’s no end to the changes we experience, only new developments that further enhance a once held view point and allow it to evolve.

When I look back at my life, I see a little boy full of hopes, dreams, and desires, wanting to meet his own expectations. Life hasn’t been terrible to me, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t been terrible to me. There’s so many dreams I’ve crushed and given up on over the course of my life that younger me would’ve never come to understand. Nowadays I do understand, but shutting yourself down is hard, and heartbreaking. I want to be able to tell myself I can do anything, but reality is that I wont. Truly I believe I can, I know this sounds like I’m being negative or harsh with myself, but hold the thought until I finish, because for me its not about whether I can do something, because I believe I can achieve anything I put my heart to. It’s about am I willing to do everything I have to in order to achieve it, and understanding that makes the difference. The truth is, there’s plenty of things I’d love to do, but have become unwilling to put forth the work. It’s not out of laziness, or lack of confidence, only that I don’t believe it becomes worth my time and effort. I believe what sparked these changes in me has been my overall view on how I value myself, and how I value my effort.

Up until this point, I’ve always been very aimless. I never had a real goal post for what I wanted, I just kind of went where I ended up. I had ideas of what I wanted out of life, but didn’t have a pathway to guide me along the way. Until the day that changed.

The Spark.

Investing and finances ended up playing a huge role in my life. They opened the way for me to start having a better idea of what I wanted, and how I wanted to get it. This change in me developed something huge – It gave me self purpose. I have a family, and I love them with everything in me and more. I’d do anything to help and protect them, but ultimately I tied my value to them, not myself. As far as I was, and to an extent, am concerned, I have no self worth. I haven’t done anything to earn that value, not for my standards with myself. That’s where trading comes in.

Now it’s not that I tie all of my value to the action I’m doing, I don’t want that confusion, but the purpose it’s given me to work toward something I feel passionate about, that’s something I hadn’t felt for a very long time. Having something to work toward, that will benefit you and those you love around you is the truest form of motivation and inspiration. For myself I couldn’t care less, and I know that’s something I need to overcome and work on, but for my family? The skies the limit, and I’d truly move mountains if it meant making them happy. Finding something to strive toward that would not only benefit me, but them too? And I enjoy everything involved in the process? I couldn’t ask for anything better to dedicate my time and life to. It’s my goal, and my responsibility to come out on top for them, because when I do, I know the change that’ll come. Having a goal to aspire to like this allows me to have hope for a better future, and that’s all I’ve ever wanted.

My view on life vastly changed once I felt I had self driven purpose, and though that purpose is for those around me, I believe that makes it all the more fulfilling and genuine. I’m not the type of person who can do something for himself, not truly, I’ve come to learn that, and I’m okay with it, because I make up for it with the love I choose to share. That was my spark, the one that got me to start taking life more seriously, the one that pushed me toward this journey of great undertaking that will one day have changed everything. Every trade a stepping stone, every word I write one step closer, every thought I have for my purpose.

Conclusion

I tend to be meticulous when it comes to my writing. I have multiple notebooks, each with their own purpose, and same with my journals. I’m trying to think on what kind of posts I want to write about here, as I’m doing this for my trading, but generally the topics I end up writing about are more on what were my thoughts and emotions for the day, and expressing that. This type of writing is more on the therapeutic side, as besides my journals, I struggle to really talk about my thoughts and feelings most of the time, which is how this all ties in to my trading, since the clearer my state of mind, the better I trade. Regardless, I’ll figure it out.

See you next time. – JayesusR